Another realization

I have a job interview today. I realized as I was getting ready this morning that my husband wasn't there to check everything out and make me feel like I looked like I am put together. I won't get a text with some words of encouragement and love and I will be doing this alone. This is the first of many things that I will be doing alone.

I was alone with my kids for 10 years before he came into our lives, so how could I become so soft so quickly. He needed me to need him a little more and become less independent. I did that and now I am paying for it. Now I have to rebuild what was already a solid structure before. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to feel normal again, but will I ever? I love him so much and I want to give him all that he asks of me but after what happened last night, I just don't think I should anymore. Can a marriage survive if you hold back on each other?


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